to anyone.

people who are afraid to let go are the worse,
they make it worse on themselves on a great level.


let it go.


because nothing is going to change.
people who leave will never coming back,
things that you lost will be gone forever,


no matter how kind you have become,
how spiteful you choose to be,
it can not be undone.


move on.


{on your mark, get set & go}

it pains me.

You ought to give people the benefit of the doubt.


When something is odd about someone,
Just don't judge without really knowing the reason.
Put yourself in that person's shoes, 
And try to imagine what it is like to be in his/her position.


Don't be blinded, 
Don't be too self-centered,
As the world doesn't revolve around you, my friend.


And not only you,
But all of us live in our own little hell,
And pain makes people change, 
For better or for worse.

jatuh dan lumpuh.

semalam aku jatuh, tapi aku tak lumpuh,
hari ni aku lumpuh walau aku tak jatuh,
esok aku harap aku tak jatuh dan juga tak lumpuh.

window

i looked out of the window,
there's no star on the night sky,
but how do i see a twinkling lights on the sky?
is it you that I'm looking at?
are you smiling upon me?

somehow i wished i'm your star,
and you're the one looking out from the window,
but it'll never be,
as that fated night,
you jumped off the window.

he is.

a joker. Batman is overrated.

a painter. He paints colors to her monotonous life.

a dreamer. He dreams to reach the stars, or else a handful of clouds.

an open book. Easy to read and takes note of.

a gentle man. Holding her hands is like rocket science to him.

a lonely man. Before he found her that is.

a poet. A bundle of his letters in her closet is enough of a proof.

a hero. For all the time he protects her.

a John Lennon. And she is his Yoko Ono.

clumsy. When he stumbles upon her and falls in her arm.

an insider. He knows her dirty little secrets.

a pillar. For her to lean on.

a seeker. She could never be lost with him.

a sun. the center of her rotating life.

a breather. Her safe haven that is.

a river. He flows inside of her.

undeniable. As she think it’s wicked to deny his gravitas.

a firework. Her love to him is a celebration itself.

a believer. Of their love.

dedicated to Abah n Ma.  for the love they shared. 

Her favorite boy

I watched them from a far.
She puts her head on his shoulder. And she hugs him like he is her most favorite boy in the world.

I used to hug her like that. We used to be like that. The world used to be ours.

And now she appears in front of me, randomly. Like a magic. I am still captivated by her blinding lights.

You’re taking my head over again. Unfolding each memory.

What’s the matter now?
She said, ‘Nothing, I just want to see how you’ve been doing.’

An empty laugh escapes my cracked lips.

I would say,

I am wretched,
And she is one blissful girl.

I am bleeding inside, unconsciously,
And the bandage is lost with her.

I am lost in winters,
And she found the four seasons with him.

I am awake every night,
And she lost in her dreams beside him.


answers to his favorite girl

lost and heal

To lose someone so dear in your life is not an easy feat.

You can always dream that you'll be with them forever,

But forever is overrated.

You can always tell yourself to move on,

But moving on is never an easy act.

You can always pushed back the memories far behind,

But it will always lie there, waiting.

You can always pretend,

But at one time you lose your majestic mask,

You can always walk forward,

But life has its own intersection and loops.

You can always sleep away with the pains,

But in the morning you found your pillows wet with tears.

To heal you is to grieve and accept the losing and live with it.

RANDOM

His favourite girl.

I see her in his arms. He cuddling to her like she is his precious little girl.

He used to be mine. I used to cuddles to him just like the way he cuddles her.

Though I still couldn’t understand why I couldn’t hate him. Why I left the space in my room for his stuff? Why I decorate my house with things that he love.

And now he decided to come to see me. Out of the blue he appeared again.

What’s the plan now? You said just to see how am I doing these days. ..

I would say,

I am all black and white inside,

And he is full of seven colors of rainbow,

I am monotonous up and down,

And he is merrily from left and right,

I am so lost now,

And he found his own light house.

I am so empty without him,

And he is so contented without me.

Inspired by Decorate from Yuna

Drabbles, just for killing time.

She is...

like a magnet. She pulls him to her carelessly, effortlessly.

his muse. He always found himself thinking and pondering about her every night.

enchanting. The first day he met her he was enchanted by her pretty, clear eyes.

his cotton candy. Her natural smell that is.

a melody. Her laughs prove it all.

contagious. Her smile is.

captivating. When she flips her beautiful, long hair.

a flower. She blooms beautifully day after day.

a star. His star, shining by its own light.

addictive. Like his own personal brand of heroine.

a child. Her excited eyes tell it all. Her innocence too.

a storyteller. When she tells her story of life to him.

a brand. He is the trade marker.

a heartbreaker. When she smiles to her fan boys in front of him.

sinful. When she struts her things on the stage for other people to see.

an enigma. She is the most complicated puzzle pieces he ever encountered.



a president. Of his heart that is.

This is heavily inspired by Yonghwa and Seohyun in WGM. ;)