Playlist291111

1.Neon Bunny- A Polar Bear

2.Neon Bunny- LaLaLa

3.Neon Bunny-Falling

4.Neon Bunny- Come a Little Bit Closer

5.Zitten- By My Side

6.Adele- Set Fire to the Rain

7.Gym Class Heroes ft Neon Hitch- Ass Back Home

8.Christina Perri- A Thousand Years

9. Jung Il-woo- Someone Like you

10.Broccoli, you too?- A Universal Song

11.Yuna- Decorate

12. Rihanna- We Found Love

current feelings... (3)

right now, I'm doing my assignment for the clinical.

I think my mind is not as messed up as in the previous post.

I mean, I'm still a lil bit unstable but I'll try my best to hinder whatever satanic,demonic, evilest intention or thoughts.

I figured it is new year after all, why not turning over a new leaf and strive forward and for the best.

I'm not that young hormonal teenagers anymore , heck I'll turn to big 2-3 years old in coming days so let's just grow up and straighten up your mind and heart, pretty please.?

I don't know why but maybe this is coming from the sudden realization after watching matluthfi's latest videos entitled 'rokok dan kopiah'. (He's my ultimate favouritest Malaysian vlogger).

a few of beautiful things to ponder from his video:

- rational vs belief.

-you're never alone if you start to depends to 'yang tidak mati' (ALLAH S.W.T).

-even the most optimistic person on earth will finally seek for some dependency like turns to his religions, beliefs, etc. when his life has turned upside down.

-strict religion is not the better religion.

-you wonder why Allah sometimes doesn't give what you wanted most after you've continually, constantly praying, performing solat etc. but the question is. does your Ibadah's sincere enough? Ultimately, sincerity is the key point.

I think I've yada yada too much.

bye.

Lately, I've been sleeping really late. past 3am. my biological clock totally messed up this time around.

and myself too.

I've been thinking a lot about what has happened to me this past couple of weeks.

I keep on lying and the lies just piles up, just like that.

Also, I think I couldn't hold up in this anymore, I feel like I lose interest in everything, majorly in studying. I remember that this always happens to me when I'm in my most important phase in my life.

I fucked up during form five by playing around instead of studying..

I fucked up during my second year of matriculation,

and I have the same feelings now, exactly on my final year as undergrads..

I regret now being in this course, I don't see myself anymore,

being able to study in this course..

can I just stay still and forget everything.

but,

I don't want the same regrets that I felt after all of that turns.

I don't have the courage to say this to anyone.

so messed up,

I don't know who could I talk to, don't have anyone to turns to..

Fever's End part 2

Tablo's part two of Fever's End just released on November 1st. so easily my favourite track is track no 8.

Dear TV / 해열

Dear TV,

Desensitize me.
Gimme more genocide please.
The world is your aphrodisiac,
so you stay turned on every minute,
every second I breathe.
You weaponize greed,
kill me with incessant I-needs.
Got me checkin’ out those,
and checkin’ out these.
Mainstream me, disinfectin’ my breed.
I’m lookin’ for nirvana but you Geffenize me.
Point me to the skies till heaven’s eye bleeds.
Anoint me with your lies then divinize me.
If heaven is a show, well, televise me.
But I won’t lie my way in, no fakin’ IDs.
I’ll die standin’. Try breakin my knees.
I’ll do a handstand like I’m breakin’.
Now freeze. Don’t act like you know me ’cause you recognize me.
You sell my record, not me.

only Tablo can make 35 seconds of rap seemingly poignant and genius.

another favourite track should be Thankful Breath. it's a moving song, full of hopes and love. i love how Tablo mention Epik High and also his wife and daughter in this song.

then Expiration Date- it's a quiet song with melancholic feel, accompanied by Tablo's breathy singing voice.

Tomorrow and Source tied at fourth place- Tomorrow is a bit mainstream with Taeyang's voice adds on to easy listening and Source reminds me of old school Epik High, with the featuring of scratch by the one and only DJ Tukutz!

Overall, as expected Tablo never fail to amaze me with his genius and deep lyrics. now all I could ask is for Epik High to be together again once Mithra Jin comes back from the army.

Thank you, Tablo

for staying strong and continue making beautiful music for us.