choki choki

so the other night i got to watched adnan sempit 2. courtesy of my kindhearted room mate(s). with s as my other friend was sleeping over here that night. here means my room.
so here's my review.

oh, while typing this i'm eating my bread with choki choki. a tube of choki choki could be eaten with 2 slices of bread the size of usual bread with any brand like Gardenia, hi-five, mighty white or roti from any bakery like Cintaku bakery, Perling bakery, Muhibbah Cake n House, Rotiboy, Bread Story and etc.
i have a  penchant for good and delicious breads. i think this comes from my mother. she loves anything from bakery. how i wish i have Bread Story and Auntie Anne's shop beside my home. how i wish. how i ..


wait a minute, isn't this post supposedly about my thought after watching adnan sempit 2.
well. above is what running across my mind while my friends were laughing their heads off.
i couldn't comprehend at all.
i wonder did my mind suddenly become 'sempit'.

why in the world would talented people like Shaheizy Sam would act in something like that? i thought his turn in Songlap was the beginning of something worthy for his acting career. what a waste.

but I guess the answer also lies on local movie-goers . see the figures of KL Gangster. surely 12 million grossing is a lot. and with coming KL Gangster 2, let's see.
one thing's for sure, i'm not the one contributing to the 12 million.
i'd rather buy a box of choki choki. and watch the video of my nephew swimming in a bathtub.

of reality and fascination.

while typing this away, I'm currently listening to Big Bang's newest album, Alive.

and in my honest opinion, we K-pop fans know how to actually have fun.
well, why you ask?
because we know how to move our body and bob our head along with the music and songs that we only know maybe 10 % of the meaning.
and that's where Google and YouTube plays a very important role for K-pop fans. in fact, YouTube has dedicated a K-pop channel for the YouTube user.

and I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm one of the fans.
but, I also take a million miles stand away from the so-called die hard fans who jump on people who dislike K-pop.
i'm well aware of people who do not bother to listen to anything Korean or watch anything Korean. that's their prerogative. and i respect that.
keep calm and listen to Big Bang.

tendency

- i admit that i have the tendency to scrutinize mistakes in people's writing in whatever medium. the mistakes including grammatical error, spelling mistakes etc. but i didn't go to extra length by telling them on the face about the mistakes if it is minor. and also, depending on what medium of it. if it's done on twitter or blog posts, Facebook updates or LiveJournal entry, then i'm perfectly fine. but if it's done for learning and teaching process, in newspaper, in movies or dramas (i'm looking at you Korean dramas), then it is not alright. because surely it could affect people who reads it. this makes me wonder why i didn't take up English major or TESL degree in university instead of doing this radiation thing.

- many said that i could be a great leader given the chance. i think so too. but if i met people that could lead me well, i tend to follow their lead. as with my friends, with A i tend to lead on everything, deciding on this and that, but with Z i tend to just laid back and follow her. hence, i want my future husband to be a great leader. one that could show me the way and have vision in life. one that could be my Imam for the rest of my life.

- i am a hot-tempered person. especially with my family. with my mum. i remembered i used to throw things when i'm mad or tired. this especially, exclusively heightened up when i'm 2-3 days away from my menses. the swings of the mood is so incredible that i tend to have many insane thoughts that is not healthy and many more. i would become really emotional even my sister always said that she hates me when i'm having menses. sometimes i have to remind my mum that the time is about to come, and she'll understand not to do anything that could make me go out of control. yes, it's selfish.

- i'm not a shopaholics but i love to shop the same thing. i have 2 or three shirts with the same designs but in a different color.it's  the same with shoes, specifically pumps and flats. oh how i love flats. and i couldn't content with just buying one. when my friends when to go shop her things, i always end up buying a lots of things than her. especially foods. foods and me is forever relevant.

so this post is totally about my tendencies. my most prevalent one. so what's yours?

it's been a long time since I posted anything in here.

heh, it's expected since I so have trouble in committing to something.

yeah, commitment.

that's why until now I tak kahwin kahwin. heh, unrelated.

it's just that my life is so not stable right now, been very busy, what's with my final year project, my broken lappy and my health that is not in a good condition. lately, when I went anywhere, my classmates and some random mak cik told me that I looked pale.

huh? maybe I've to start putting on some make up.

case in point: today at lab

zorep: hai ana!

aku: hai!

zorep: cari apa ana? eh, ko nampak pucat la! tak pakai lipstick kot. hehehehe

aku: hehehehehe. (sejak bila aku pakai lipstick? eh! pucat ke muka aku?)

so yeah.

but it maybe because I haven't had my lunch at that time.

and I've been thinking a lot lately.

about the decision whether to do M Sc. after I completed my degree.

about what I could do after this.

and about my family.

yes, my family.and no no , it's not about my home sick-ness or anything.

of course, I do missed my family. a lot.

but it's just something is happening in my family. something that is not good. and it hurts.

it's hurting my mother,and although she keeps her composure all the time but in her eyes. it shows.

and all of this is happening after my father passed away.

sometimes I do wonder why he leave us so early. just like that. it's so sudden I couldn't even

I do dream of what could have been if he is still here.

I do think of what he would say, what he would respond to me.

I longed for his jokes and his advice.

I missed him so much.

but this is fate. I always believe in Allah's way for His servant. whatever He does all have meanings behind it. and as a daughter I could only send doa's for him. and do sadaqah on his behalf. InsyaAllah.

and for you that still have your parents.

love them. treasure them. be good to them.

for when they're gone, no one could ever replace them.

their love for you is irreplaceable.

I've become emotional. again.

and I'm sure tomorrow I would wake up with puffy eyes. again.