to heal..

Okay, now I discover that I have to calm myself.
to think that my life is miserable is over rated when you compared it to more profound problems that the world is facing currently.
so I have to be grateful and learn to cope with whatever miserable-ness I felt.

my method to overcome this is:

I read Adam Young's blog today AND he write such awesome insights. *hangs head in shame*
He wrote what he felt with utmost sincerity that it strikes your heart at the right place.
No wonder he made awesome songs.

I listen to a song by Kate Havnevik, Think Again where the music is arranged by Adam Young himself. It's a beautiful song and her voice is .. just listen to it yourself

I wrote a couple of drabbles in my LJ.

I watched latest episode of Yongseo. they are beyond adorable.

I take bath in the cold nights and it's refreshing.

go to sleep with empty minds and wake up in the morning with a resolution to be a better person.



I wonder how I can be hopeful and miserable in a span of 15 minutes. am I bipolar?

I'm miserable

seriously, these days I'm feeling worst.

and to add to that, I've practical this coming two weeks and I'm all stuck at here.

all alone in this room.

it's raining heavily,continously from this morning until now.

I'm feeling restless

now and then the thought keep invading my minds.

the pain I felt on that day keep coming back..

I don't know what to do..

just wished that everything gonna end soon enough.

RANDOM

His favourite girl.

I see her in his arms. He cuddling to her like she is his precious little girl.

He used to be mine. I used to cuddles to him just like the way he cuddles her.

Though I still couldn’t understand why I couldn’t hate him. Why I left the space in my room for his stuff? Why I decorate my house with things that he love.

And now he decided to come to see me. Out of the blue he appeared again.

What’s the plan now? You said just to see how am I doing these days. ..

I would say,

I am all black and white inside,

And he is full of seven colors of rainbow,

I am monotonous up and down,

And he is merrily from left and right,

I am so lost now,

And he found his own light house.

I am so empty without him,

And he is so contented without me.

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