underneath everything.

wow. 
finally.
the closure to my four years of being an undergrad student.


this might be the last time i'm blogging by using usmsecure network. sniff sniff.


when i think back of the time i first stepped into usm, in the year 2008,  my late father and my mother were the one that send me off.
and today, in the year 2012, my second sister will be the one to pick me up.


how i wished my father would be able to attend my convocation. how i wish. 


well, underneath everything, i learned a lot.
 i learned that what ever things you thought is impossible after all could be made possible.
i learned that though you may have a lot of  friends, at the end of the day, the only thing that's left is you by yourself. a man gotta manned up. 
i learned not to being too judgmental on every one. save you doubt for any other days. learn to accept people the way it is.
i learned to be more carefree. i learned on how to improvise, to survive, not to undo the mistakes but learn from it and chin up.
i learned that above all, my family is my everything. stick together until whenever.


the things i cherished the most is the chances of getting to know amazing people. 
lecturers and friends.
i 'm not one to open up to people. if i'm comfortable enough then you would be able to 'see' me. i'm not one of goody-two-shoes.
so, being able to make a couple of friends from here is truly an amazing feat for me. 


however, sometime someway, i learned that somehow, my decision of taking up this degree is kind of a mistake. 
i realized that I've potential on other things, but sadly with little guidance, i just kind of stumbled here.  
yes, i do have regrets but everything's written and can't be undone. 
so i gotta live my life. 
remember, you have to be thankful! . 
imagine what would happen if i never got the place in usm in the first place. 
where would I be now?






aaaanndd a friend from tumblr  asked me yesterday, so what's next for you since you've completed your degree?


i think about it for  a little bit and my answer;


'I've applied to a couple of uni for postgraduate program.  and will keep up to date with any  job offerings. for the meantime, i'm going to enjoy my hoolidayyy!'


happy holiday. 
and let's go for life and loved ones. 


{get up & Let's Go! }