to heal..

Okay, now I discover that I have to calm myself.
to think that my life is miserable is over rated when you compared it to more profound problems that the world is facing currently.
so I have to be grateful and learn to cope with whatever miserable-ness I felt.

my method to overcome this is:

I read Adam Young's blog today AND he write such awesome insights. *hangs head in shame*
He wrote what he felt with utmost sincerity that it strikes your heart at the right place.
No wonder he made awesome songs.

I listen to a song by Kate Havnevik, Think Again where the music is arranged by Adam Young himself. It's a beautiful song and her voice is .. just listen to it yourself

I wrote a couple of drabbles in my LJ.

I watched latest episode of Yongseo. they are beyond adorable.

I take bath in the cold nights and it's refreshing.

go to sleep with empty minds and wake up in the morning with a resolution to be a better person.



I wonder how I can be hopeful and miserable in a span of 15 minutes. am I bipolar?

I'm miserable

seriously, these days I'm feeling worst.

and to add to that, I've practical this coming two weeks and I'm all stuck at here.

all alone in this room.

it's raining heavily,continously from this morning until now.

I'm feeling restless

now and then the thought keep invading my minds.

the pain I felt on that day keep coming back..

I don't know what to do..

just wished that everything gonna end soon enough.

RANDOM

His favourite girl.

I see her in his arms. He cuddling to her like she is his precious little girl.

He used to be mine. I used to cuddles to him just like the way he cuddles her.

Though I still couldn’t understand why I couldn’t hate him. Why I left the space in my room for his stuff? Why I decorate my house with things that he love.

And now he decided to come to see me. Out of the blue he appeared again.

What’s the plan now? You said just to see how am I doing these days. ..

I would say,

I am all black and white inside,

And he is full of seven colors of rainbow,

I am monotonous up and down,

And he is merrily from left and right,

I am so lost now,

And he found his own light house.

I am so empty without him,

And he is so contented without me.

Inspired by Decorate from Yuna

Review: Decorate by Yuna

The tracklist:

1. Gadis Semasa
2. These Streets
3. Penakut
4. Fireworks
5. Rocket
6. Random Awesome
7. Permission
8. Cinta Sempurna
9. Decorate
10. Super Something (Bonus Track)
11. Dan Sebenarnya “acoustic” (Bonus Track)

Yuna's voice is always soothing and I find that in some of the songs her voice comes out hauntingly beautiful. Just like how Sharon sounded like in Memories, how Kate Havnevik sounded like in Sleepless, how Amy Lee sounded like in October.

My favourite would be Permission, Decorate and Penakut.

Permission is ultimately suitable for your listening when you're driving, strolling the sidewalks, with a little thinking to be done.

Decorate is LOVE but way too short. Seriously, Yuna left me craving for more. and the MV is just simple but with deep meaning behind it.

Penakut summarizes my feelings when I'm at the bottom of the rotating wheels of life. My exact feelings when it comes to the thing called LOVE?

as for the bonus track, Super Something and Dan Sebenarnya. Its okay , I guess.

I have love and hate relationship with Dan Sebenarnya.. I never like the song as it sounded too mainstream and too cheesy for me.But ironically, that's the song that brought recognisation for Yuna. and I have a soft spot for anything acoustic so Dan Sebenarnya acoustic version just underwhelmed my dislike for the song.

With that said, her first album is very GOOD. and hope to listens more from her.

You can buy Decorate by Yuna here.

Drabbles, just for killing time.

She is...

like a magnet. She pulls him to her carelessly, effortlessly.

his muse. He always found himself thinking and pondering about her every night.

enchanting. The first day he met her he was enchanted by her pretty, clear eyes.

his cotton candy. Her natural smell that is.

a melody. Her laughs prove it all.

contagious. Her smile is.

captivating. When she flips her beautiful, long hair.

a flower. She blooms beautifully day after day.

a star. His star, shining by its own light.

addictive. Like his own personal brand of heroine.

a child. Her excited eyes tell it all. Her innocence too.

a storyteller. When she tells her story of life to him.

a brand. He is the trade marker.

a heartbreaker. When she smiles to her fan boys in front of him.

sinful. When she struts her things on the stage for other people to see.

an enigma. She is the most complicated puzzle pieces he ever encountered.



a president. Of his heart that is.

This is heavily inspired by Yonghwa and Seohyun in WGM. ;)

adab dan hormat

okay.

story time.

since 2 paper checked, so time to breathe easily again.

review: 1st paper- ok kot

2nd paper: tak ok sgt. tak ckp preparatn.

berbalik pd tajuk entry kali ni,

mengikut wikipedia, adab bermaksud konteks perilaku, perbuatan: kebaikan, kesantunan, moral, sopan santun, kesusilaan, kemanusiaan.

aku pon bkan la penuh beradab tapi...big TAPI kat sini ye.

(entry ni khas ntok sape2 yg bakal jadi rumet aku dan juga sedang mnjadi rumet ye)

1.kalau rumet aku tgh tido, aku kua blik try tutup pintu pelan2..

BUKAN lepas je pintu tu camtu. BEDEBAMMMM!

2. aku ckp phone kat lua tau even ckp ngan mak atau ank sedare..

tapi kamu leh je selambe diri ckp ngan pakwe merengek2 dgn volume tahap 5.

(aku bkan jelez tapi imagine kalo aku tgh stadi, ok aku bkan la slalu stadi .tu takpe lg tp bayangkn aku tgh smayang pon bleh je bermanja ngan tepon. ) RESPEK ok.

3. nk masak lam blek boleh, tapi kalo msk benda berbau mcm keropok ikan tu kan, agak2 la ye.

abes pakaian sy berbau. da la skang musim ujan, nk bsh bj susah ye. bj br pkai skali tetibe ade bau lain plak. ANGIN ...

4. kalo membe dtg blek kan, aku no hal tapi kalo aku tgh tdo atau stadi, pliz la jgn borak jerit2. .

membe ko kat seblah je pon, bkan nye dya kat padang ko kat bilik..

5.ko nk bgn awal bleh, nk bkak lampu terang2 pon leh, nk bkak lappy pon takpe tapi tolong la kalo nk dgr lagu ke ape ke pliz la gune earfon maupon headphone. murah je kot. 2-3 rm da dpt.. aku tak ingin nk dgr lagu2 BEIBER tu ok. maupon lagu2 yg da oudated. ok sedikit KEJAM di ditu.

kesimpulannya, aku walaupon bkan la manusia tersopan kat muka bumi ni tapi bab2 simple camni aku try jaga. biar la aku tak suke cmne pon kat sape2 tapi ble da jadi rumet automatik RESPEK tu ade ye.

takkan la sume aku nk kne ckp face 2 face.. kang tak bertegur sapa susah plak ye.

common sense je sume ni.. tak payah bkak buku forensik sains ke cari kat google ke.

sekian.

exam OOO exam

It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop

-Confucius-

*phew*

tinggal lagi 4 hari 1st paper ntok musim periksa kali ni..

paper nuclear med.

tapiii...

notes tak abis2 lagi.

baca 2-3 page, then stop jap..

#chorus#

bkak soompi..renung twitter..bkak YT..tgk WGM..makan..toilet..daydreaming.. = 2 JAM

tgk nota balik..

then ulang balik #chorus#

MACAMANE la nak abis nota..

da la aku ni slow..nak paham satu-satu slide pun mau bocor CSF..

da la dabel dose kot paper..

7- nuc med

8-diagnostic

2-2 paper kat atas killer subject..nota mcm kitab kuning ..

pastu ade lagi dabel dos next week nye..jadual sket punye chantekk!

15-rad protectn

16-arab

17-19= RAYA haji

22-phy hum body

25-dosi >>>>>super killer subject!

28.11-9.12 = pre klinikal..

maknenye birthday aku kat sini..

*sigh*

life as a STUDENT.

ntok kawan2.. selamat menempuhi exam ngan jayanya..

do the BEST!